For today’s gratitude post, I thought that I would focus on something that has always concerned me – my senses. My most long-standing fear has been the loss of any of my senses. When I was a child, I used to pray every night that when I awoke the next day, I would have the ability to see and to hear and to use all my senses like I did during that day. So, as you can see, this is something that has bothered me for quite a long time. There are times, even now, when I repeat these same pleadings in my prayers when I am exceptionally worried about them.
For most, this would be something that is not thought about regularly. I have no real idea why it is for me. Growing up, my paternal grandmother had lost her eyesight – or most of it. I remember having to go to her house (she lived just through the block from our family) to help her read a recipe or help her do other things that required eyesight. She still continued to live a rather full life but my parents (and us children) had to step in and provide assistance. So, perhaps that is where the loss of sight phobia comes from. As a musician, the loss of hearing is terribly frightening. Anytime I get a cold and lose a portion of my hearing, I freak out. Luckily, it is only a temporary ailment when it occurs.
So, for today, I am grateful that I do possess my senses. I have the ability to see the world and the beauty that exists. I can hear so much majesty – organized music, sounds of nature, my parents voices, my own voice, and everything that makes horrible and beautiful sounds. I can smell (most of the time) – I love the smell of flowers (especially lilacs), pine trees, and freshly-washed laundry. I can taste the difference between bitter and sweet, sour and tangy. I can feel textures under my fingers. I can snuggle under my favorite blanket that is so soft and warm and feel that it is the opposite of uncomfortable.
I am blessed. For this day, at least, I possess all my senses and will try not to take that for granted. One day, I may wake up and not be able to see or hear. So, for today and today alone can I feel this amount of gratitude. Tomorrow, I will take as it comes and know it will be as it is meant to be and I will learn whatever lessons I am meant to learn.
Peace and love,
The Mad Pianist
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